I was about to go to bed when I remembered I had to watch a video of a talk for our Cross-Cultural Communications class tomorrow. At first, I was totally uninterested in listening. But as the speaker went on, I became immersed in what she was saying.
Thursday, November 10, 2011
The Single Story.
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
First day of the Last.
My last semestral break ever ended approximately 58 minutes ago as I write this post.
November 8, 2011 is officially the last first day of classes for me. I'm graduating by March 2012 (hopefully) and I'm kind of scared. I'm not quite sure if I'm ready for the responsibilities and the probable repercussions of my actions. I guess the reason why I am pushing for my own business (see previous post) is because I'm scared I might screw things up for the company I might work for. I know that sounds silly but I do fear I might not be good enough. And also, the feeling of growing older makes me sad. I know it should always be carpe diem but thinking about becoming a full-blown adult is just way intimidating.
| So scared of growing older. I'm only good at being young.
--John Mayer
And it's not like I'm not excited to graduate, I mean, I am! I've been studying practically my whole life. It's time to leave the walls of schools and go out and try and apply myself (while earning! haha). But a part of me just wants to remain a kid and have someone support me and tell me what to do. I have tasted the reality of corporations when I had my summer stint in a huge telco company and I didn't enjoy it. I did in a sense that I met amazing friends there, but the job? Wow. If that's the real world of corporate jobs, I'm in for a world of pain. It will probably suck the life out of me. I'm already confined to technicalities because of the academe. What more if I'm stuck in a 9 to 5 job?
I know creating a business from ground up is extremely hard. It's harder than actually staying in a stable job. But I think if I do create a business, I'll be keeping my inner child via creativity and also, I'll be in charge of my time! I won't be disappointing anybody if I fail except myself. Having that sole responsibility seems like it will take the pressure off. But then again I realize, that would not present me a sustainable future. Everybody is expected to care for their own sakes--for their own welfare. I guess it's just all about setting your priority straight. My priority if I build a business is not creating a sustainable source for myself but in order to be more in control and not lose myself. But I could lose a lot of money and waste effort. My priority if I take a corporate job is money. I wonder if it's ever possible to find a job you love that provides your soul with bliss and keeps your wallet healthy?
Ahhh. I don't know why my mind is wandering off towards this thought. It's 1 am and I've a 9 am Political Science class. I should be sleeping. The thought of graduating and finding a job just suddenly crossed my mind and scared me out of my wits. Reality bites. But I guess I have at least 4 months until it really chews off a piece.
For now, I have to fix my current state of living and go to bed. Future can wait until my next pondering. Haha. I'll grow up little by little I guess. :)
Monday, November 7, 2011
If you had your own restaurant, what would it be called?
I love food.
No, love is actually an understatement. Food gives me euphoria. And I know that's exaggerating my fondness for food, but really, food is just one of the things I completely worship. Its existence is more than just for my sustenance, but also for my past-time purposes. (Not that I eat every time I'm bored. Okay. Maybe I do.) I consider food as my past-time because I completely enjoy making food. I experiment in the kitchen for most of my free time because there's something about eating what I made that brings me bliss, especially if other people eat what I concocted! I love creating new recipes. Most of the time, I discover new recipes by mistake (like I was following an existing recipe and I forgot an ingredient or threw in an unnecessary ingredient). But sometimes, those mistakes do not result into something edible. Still, it doesn't bring me down. I still experiment when I have the time and my schedule permits.

